The majority of these changes were of my own doing. I must like living on the edge somewhat because I seem to stir things up for myself when life seems to get a bit regular. Overall I am thrilled with the way my life is at this point in time. As much as I miss my family, I feel that I belong here in Oregon - I really am in love with this place. The future looks bright for a new business I'm developing. This is pure synchronicity at work and not something I planned ahead of time - and I am really peaceful about how things are literally falling into place. That's how things are since I decided to move to Oregon - just seem to fall (or roll) into place. Of course there will always be days when the clouds come back and cover the sunshine and blue skies and I will start questioning myself but this is part of my being human. I do love it when I am no longer questioning and in the 'knowing' of life. I am learning to soak up these moments when they come around.
A new year is a good time to bookmark our stories and see just exactly where we stand and if we like the view. Mostly it is a good opportunity to be grateful for living, loving and knowing that kind of full life living will also come with some heartaches and heartbreaks. It's just how it is. I used to think that if I tried really hard to protect my heart it wouldn't hurt as much, I now know that kind of living is no kind of life - I want to know when my time is up that I lived my life to the fullest. I want to reach for my dreams and cherish the relationships that come my way. I want to laugh and dance and cry and not give a damn about what anyone else thinks of me. Something about experience that teaches us more compassion for others and ourselves. I know that fully creating and giving what we are here to contribute is the greatest way to find joy and happiness. My learning is to not over-think things and trust the 'knowing'. Bring on 2013!
